statement time

every had to write a statement about yourself? its a pain in the arse! i had to do it today.

My girlfriend has been working on her statement (shes a practicing artist) for a year on and off, and i always noticed how fed up she got writing it, now in my mind, i just put this down to 'pfff, shes making a big deal out of it, how hard can it be?' but i had a go at it today (haven't done this sort of this thing since school) and its really really hard! whats more it really makes you question who you are or what you do.

i go soooo fed up with it, and quickly began to question what it was that i did (to cut your confusion down to a minimum, we're putting on an exhibition of art together, I'm not really a fine artist, but i do like to produce work from time to time, so I'm in the show as well), i have to admit sitting there and trying to sum up why i made certain things the way i did, or why i liked certain things, or how i went about it, really gets to you, and in the end it just sounded like i was trying ti impress you or be very very poncy!

truth is all i wanted to put was:

'I'm not really a fine artist, i like to create stuff, i like big colours, here's something i made'

i mean honestly who wants to read a big rant about stuff I'm probably forcing myself to thing so that it sounds right......id rather buy you a drink and talk about it over a pint, but that's the trouble with the art world, so much of it is impersonal, and you cant just go 'this is mine, i like creating things'.

damn it, i should do that! from now on all my statements will reflect what i really think!

hazzah! we have reached a conclusion, this blog thing has a use after all!

well I'll wish you all a goodnight, and to my girlfriend if your reading this, i have a much better understanding of how hard it is to write about yourself and your practice now, in future i shall be more supportive!

everythings gone wrong!

OK, so my finely tuned plan to start a blog and rant to my hearts content has gone a little wrong. mainly this is due to virgin media and the terrible broadband service they supply. want to know their excuse? 'oh we're not working on London right now' .....reason? none!

anyway, enough of that....news......news of me, that's why your here isn't it?

OK .... firstly my little incident i reported last week, settled itself , because i got the chance to show off a little last week, and redeemed myself somewhat in the eyes of my boss (sort of). well at least i hope so, its been a busy week, and Ive been socialising like a maniac, drinking every night of the week, and I'm beginning to suspect its effecting my teeth as they feel...........funny..... can drinking make your teeth feel funny? i dunno, it was a hard one to explain when i visited the dentists yesterday.

- hows everything going?

- er OK, the thing is i have a dull pain in my lower back teeth

- really? when you eat or drink?

- yep, when i drink definitely

- OK, hot or cold liquids?

- cold.....cold refreshing, liquids normally with bubbles and froth...mmmmmmmmmmmm

- .............?

- say is there a pub near here by any chance?





so drinking is now the main order of the day...its just happened i think its working a regular (or not so regular 9-7) day...i need a drink to settle me down at the end of the day

anyway that's all for, my connection is still bust and Ive hijacked someone Else's Unsecure wireless signal.....don't want to stay here for long! more to come soon!

first day blog

Hello, i feel its important to post something here as I've just opened my blog, i came here to share my thoughts with everyone, and so...........i shall! but tonight will be brief as I've set this up kinda late in the evening.

Let me start with something simple.... work! today i go tin trouble for something that completely wasn't my fault! i say trouble, i didn't get told off, or have to chat to anyone, no i got the kinda trouble that brews in the backs of peoples minds and comes up when you have to get reviewed in three months time. in short I'm getting dodgy looks and and a bad rep is building!

it all stems from the fact i work on computers and i work as part of a team, i wont say on what (officially i cant, confidentiality agreements and all) but i had to submit someones Else's work to the next state, because the last thing that needs to be done to it is my job, however the submission has my name on it as I'm the last person to see the file, now you can probably see what happened next... it goes off, is wrong (for the second time in 2 days) and low and behold who do they come to? moi! i wouldn't mind so much in a job i was comfortable in, but I've just started at this place and i can hardly pass the buck at this point....so i kinda took the looks and comments of 'This is stupid!' (yes they actually said that) and slunk off after work......... ruined my evening thoroughly! ......so here i am, inspired to share this with the world!

lucky you!


..........monkeys to follow soon!